what i felt searching for him all day

im trying to find my bf this is the only record of him soo if youve seen this please tell me i dont know if his moved on or not but im optimistic and i have faith i lost contact with him i know its foolish, he may not want me, he may not love me but, or his moved on, or maybe he still searching for me, but i know what i felt and i felt magic

stay-strong-beautiful-girl:

This is absolutely terrifying. Just look at it, it is so real and astonishing. You need to reblog this. I don’t care if you’re used to reblogging orange, teenage girls with vans on. I don’t care if you’re used to reblogging vintage or photography. This is real. You can even see the fury in his eyes. The tense muscles in between his fingers. The heavy breathing. 

 I will always reblog this. It means so much. Oh my gosh.♥

i usually dont reblog emo stuff and get u downs but i will to help my gay brothers   in needreal one of the most disturbing things ever but dont let it get u down ok

thumblr is a fun place

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check out this adorable song that makes all the bad things in the world some how disappear

hey its my ugly bros birthday say happy birth day fuck the day started out fine stupid nice awsome and fuckin fucked up i lost my pliers copper wire and got 3.0 in a project that mother  fuckin suck  can find my water jug ( thermos then

but on the up side i found out people have that all people arent the same ,i kinda i was stupid to let cartons and  warnings influence me i used to think the world was just unknown shadow everyone is the same inside rotten stuck up and  understanding

i also learned that the reason i fail at many things is because i live n a dream haze i dont take things seriously i live in a dream land covered with fog  it used to be cloud nine

but i need to face life not runaway in the fog

i lost my ID from usc

for wearing rubber shoes my god im making a apology letter

it all started when i want to draw on a big drawing book and i remembered we needed that and someone is selling it so i walked all the way down stairs passed my nstp project i almost broke my printer with who knew printers arent water proof

then after i passed it at the chapel the nstp office is located there  the walked all the way down the stinky rotten tree place its filled with falling fruit and people are too lazy to pick the sit up

then the gym

then at the engineering building all the way out side while i almost tripped at a manhole cover

then tried to find the shop soo basically i spent 1 hour walking around the heat    and crossing the street soo many times ,my feet started to hurt really bad and i walked passed soo many things then i ask directions from many people they alsaid the same thing my fucked up mind didnt believe them cuz ive been there before soo i ask many people and they all said the same thing then the from guards then she called me then she confiscated  my ID for wearing rubber shoes the i went to the students affair  office then they made me take a picture of some shitty paper then i ust decided ill just go with it im tired

after many minutes of walking i found the shop when i met this gay dude who pretends t be gay soo he could hang with girls who is soo mean to me and said the shop is in the campus ,good thing i didnt listen to him

if i did i could have been back to campus but lucidly i recognize the place

then found the shop then bought a 12X18 drawing pad then out of money again

broke soo broke

then i went up to the gym and thought  its nice to eat here where it stinks of rotten fruit and sweaty half naked me or men who play sports with their unifor m i find it soo weird for athletes  to play in their uniform

they dont look sweaty tough

after i ate i  walked up then sat down at the benches near the chapel and trees

where its soo calm there then painted some rocks and sunlight i really didnt want to leave but school then went up the giant hill where my class is

walking in that hill feels ike being pulled by gravity

and to make it more shit its soo hot

then walked up so many stairs to my class room

where my friends are outside waiting for teacher the some dude said teacher is absent soo i hurried to get my ds to picture them if they lied or not

but they were gone soo i told everyone and i was surprised to find out my teacher was absent  i lost my ID walked soo may minutes

for this but fortunately i was relieved i was 15 minutes or 40 minutes late or early

short story is i almost died from the walking and heat almost got hit my a car aand looked at sexy men at the gym lost my id and almost punched the guard

and almost puked sand and dust this has been the most back breaking sitty day in USC for now

"the golden rules means follow your rules even f you know everybody again it follow your rules who you are and what you want to become"
— from my dad thanx dad

ok i just went home to my grandmas house yesterday

and waiting in the back ground is this wannabe shirtless dude who unfortunately is my cousin hes huge has great abs but unfortunately all those muscles went to his pea sized brain he told me shit like it ok to go to collge drunk as long as your smart

he said i should change how i act and how people will take advantage of me and all of my friends they’ll go rotten or how im gonna be a loser wtf wtf he forced me to listen to his fuckin retarded crap

all the time i loks away he wanted me to listen

or how i take advantage of woman soo that ill be popular

wtf wtf wtf and i told everyone in my family my mom dad etc and the most warm understanding thing came out of there mouth they said to follow my rules to follow my guts to follow what i am they said everyone has their way they said i should have said sorry but  we have our own ways of living i cant live life as i want my wn way soo thats when i discovered the moto of my dad

this  big ass gangsters rule is

THE GOLDEN RULE

wich means follow your golden rule your rules show them what your worth

i had a awesome night

and this morning i just found out that i lost my expensive thermos  like water jog

weird moment is when your hitting on a guy who has a boy friend XD

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